It Makes Me Truly Glad
No one reads this and that makes me happy. For if someone, to say someone I know, read this then they might know how I feel. If they knew how I feel then they would know I was lying the entirety of the time I talked to them. That would make for some awkward situations in conversation, no? Like the times they ask me how I am doing and I say well. Not to say people ask how I am doing or anything (unless prompted in someway i.e. "How are you doing today, Soandso").
Aggravation is what I feel these days. Sheer aggravation at everyone and everything anymore. Why? The questions that only I can answer for myself, and if only answerable by myself then I am quite screwed. As of late I have wanted to do nothing other than give up due to this aggravation.
I really wish I had stayed in the Military. Life was simple and the few fights and bit of, for lack of a better word, drama that broke out were easily resolved. Here people are not forced into confrontation and that is what gets them. We, as a people, avoid conflicts. Some of the people I know avoid conflicts to the extent that they would rather ruin their own lives just to not see Soandso. Why?
I find myself wishing I had never seen some of these people again. To have never told them that I was back. That would have saved myself grief and the feelings that come with it. For you I wish I had never met you in the first place. When I say never I mean it. Not that I dislike said person, but instead that I dislike the way I feel towards them as it makes myself feel empty. Makes me want to give up.
Oh well. To vent and release is what this box is for and that is exactly what I have done.
Aggravation is what I feel these days. Sheer aggravation at everyone and everything anymore. Why? The questions that only I can answer for myself, and if only answerable by myself then I am quite screwed. As of late I have wanted to do nothing other than give up due to this aggravation.
I really wish I had stayed in the Military. Life was simple and the few fights and bit of, for lack of a better word, drama that broke out were easily resolved. Here people are not forced into confrontation and that is what gets them. We, as a people, avoid conflicts. Some of the people I know avoid conflicts to the extent that they would rather ruin their own lives just to not see Soandso. Why?
I find myself wishing I had never seen some of these people again. To have never told them that I was back. That would have saved myself grief and the feelings that come with it. For you I wish I had never met you in the first place. When I say never I mean it. Not that I dislike said person, but instead that I dislike the way I feel towards them as it makes myself feel empty. Makes me want to give up.
Oh well. To vent and release is what this box is for and that is exactly what I have done.
I Wish I Had Never Met You
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